Tom and I switched drop off / pick up today with the kids. (weird that I can't say "girls" anymore, which I always said.)
I went straight to karl's room today due to the horrible baby news from the past week. My heart cracked wide open when I picked him up and hugged and kissed him. It's broken for what I have and those other mommy's don't have today. And how that could change any second. It's terrifying.
I've been around the blogworld and message board world for a long time - well over 6 years. I've seen a lot of tragic loss. But today's news of Thalon's death rocked my boat big time. I never read her blog until today and I really don't even know what he died from. I went and read a bunch of her previous posts and couldn't make it past too many after seeing pictures of such a healthy boy and just "normal" day to day postings. And then I saw a picture of that beautiful boy wearing the exact jammies which are one of my top 2 favorites of karl's.
I have never cried over a "stranger" more than I did today. I've cried lots of times, but this time, well, it was different to me. Like I was looking at my own son's mortality.
I am so very sorry for any family who has to go through something of this nature. A child's death. A pregnancy loss. Sickness. Jesus, anything at all that isn't perfectly a picture perfect day for their child (or soon to be).
I just can't fathom their pain. And I hope that in time, they can begin to heal. Their loss will NEVER be "okay". But I just hope they can all smile again in time.