We are back to breastfeeding.
I haven't talked much about breastfeeding lately, mostly because I'm so very disappointed with my abilities this time. Let me catch you up ...
Due to the surgeries and sicknesses, I wasn't able to keep up with karl's demand of breastmilk. I still was nursing everyday and night, I had to supplement with formula. Of course I would rather him have 100% breastmilk, but I do what I have to do to keep my son healthy. I pump at work and nurse him whenever I'm around him (and not on any medications). We were making due.
So this stepback in him wanting to nurse when I got back from my trip really freaked me out. No way would I be ready to stop breastfeeding at just 5 months. No. Fucking. Way.
But, as of last night and this morning, I'd say we are back at 100%. I think my milk supply is even in better than it was before I left. I'm eating a lot, drinking a lot and nursing a lot. It was frustrating him at first to suck without much of a reward, so I focused on letting him "sleep nurse" to stimulate my own milk supply, so there would be more milk, faster, the next time he'd nurse while awake.
I still have at least 7 more months of breastfeeding left. I'd of been heartbroken if it just ended before I knew it.
I have a post brewing about breastfeeding into toddler-hood and beyond. I've spoken about it before, but I've got some new thoughts I'd like to share. Stay tuned!