Sunday, March 30, 2008

My kids.

They are so awesome. While I've been laid up due to my recovery with Egg Retrieval, I've spent a lot of time just observing them. And it's been great. They love each other so much. Allison has dropped the word "Ella" in place of "Sister". It's really cute. I'm so glad they have one another.

They also help me know I'm doing the right thing. That all this pain from ER was worth it. That waiting for when my lining is perfect is worth it. The mod squad could contain another one of these beings and I just can't chance it.

I always try to explain how if I would have gotten pregnant under the 18 months it took for Ella, I wouldn't of had Ella. Which would have put me on a different schedule and I wouldn't of had Allison either. I'd have one or two other children I would obviously love just as much, but they wouldn't be Ella and Allison. They represent my heart outside of my body. So all I can do is wait. Wait for the perfect moment.

2 comments:

jamie said...

Kids are awesome, it is so cute to observe them too! Go mod squad!!!

Morgan said...

It's like that quote goes...

"Making the decision to have a child is momentous. It is to decide forever to have your heart go walking around outside your body."