"They" have said it for years ... a baby smiling before the 4~ish week mark simply just has gas. And while it's still not a ~real~ smile (these happen around 6 weeks on average), it's not from gas. "They" now say it's just the involuntary muscles, usually happening during sleep, but happening while awake too. While getting "smiled" at melts your heart in those early weeks, it's hard to keep in mind it's totally not real. When it's real, you will know it.
At least I thought I would. I got my first smile last week. I even blogged about it. Since then, I've gotten a few random ones in reaction to me trying to get him to smile. Well, just now, I looked down while nursing and there Karl was, looking back at me. When our eyes met, I got a smile. I said to him "Oh, are you smiling at momma?", my heart swelled to the maximum. And just as I got that question out of my mouth, he burped. heh. Maybe it ~was~ just gas!
And now for my question. Do you know I literally cannot tell if my baby is really cute? (And don't comment "yes he is!" or something else to ease my mind. Instead, answer the bigger question I ask ask."
There are literally dozens and dozens of new babies out there in blogworld. Even more. And since I can look at them without anything personal feelings, I can tell if they are cute or, well, not so cute. Except for my best friends out there - all their babies are fucking cute and hell, maybe it's because of the same thing.
As a mother, do you think you can even tell if your baby happens to fall in the not so cute category?
Here is a picture of Karl, taken right this moment - is he simply full from a belly of breast milk? Or can he simply not fathom the fact I'm trying to figure out if he's just not that cute?
(don't get me wrong - I think the boy is fucking gorgeous. I am just questioning my eyes as a mother.